Sunday, September 03, 2006
the entry is solemnly posted to honour a cherished friend and brother of mine
Koh Wen Bin, who passed away on the 31st August 2006.
reminiscing upon the past;
the times that we would play about;
the times that we laughed and cried;
the times that we mugged hard for exam even though we're from different streams and different classes;
the times we encouraged each other on and had heart to heart talks;
the times we would smoke under the void decks of bedok south;
the times when nothing else mattered much when we had each other's company.
now that you're gone, i can only relive these memories one by one to feel you here deep in my heart once again, for they are deeply etched in.
i hate myself for not being there for you.
i hate you more for not wanting to talk to me or anyone about it.
i hate you for leaving us so sudden, that we all just brokedown without tears because the fact was too painful and unbearable.
i hate you for doing this to your family and people you love.
above all, i'll still miss you the most!
i wished we didn't drift apart
i wished i was the one who could be there for you.
i've failed bro, i'm sorry!
i really wished you could hear my apologies.
it's just afew more hours, before you'll be cremated
i can only send you thus far, for you have already chose to leave us.
my hearts sinking;
my eyes welling up with tears;
my fingers trembling;
as i pen these heavy thought down with much agony and pain;
to accept the cruel fact that you're gone.
oh how i wished i could be in the picture;
i would not have let this happened, never.
thank you for showing me how fragile life is;
thank you for waking me up and reminding me not to take things and friends around me for granted;
thank you for the memories, for i never once regretted knowing such a great friend sent to me from heaven.
now that you're in God's kingdom;
and eternal peace is upon you
please do miss us.
this is fucken silly cuz i know you'll never get to read this
but fuck, i still want you to know!
because i fucken miss you!!!!!!!!!!!
and i fucken hate myself for not being able to be there for you BRO!
i hope i still can feel you in my heart;
for i believe when a soul departs, the heart still lives;
inside in us.
i don't wana lose this connection bro.
for the last,
where ever you are;
know that my hearts with you.
i love you bro
rest in peace.
respectfully-yours
bingzhao.
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