when the stars didn't shine*

Friday, September 29, 2006

first book out. at home.

|Friday, September 29, 2006||andon diminished the starfire|

Thursday, September 07, 2006

i feel so spoiled.
knowing my enlistment, my parents have been pampering me so much!
people i love too!

I LOVE YOU ALL!
=DD

just take a look. i've never had this kinda record.

to daddy and mommy : I'll be fine, please do not worry about me.

replies to my tags!

FYE!: hey bro. no jabs taken ><>

ANGEL: haha, i think so too. i don't usually exercise. i will enjoy it i hope. =]] and thanks for the sms! =]

BENJI: you guys are my God-forgotten siblings bro. =] love. and i'll take care in NS, no worries.

RETTZ: hey carrot! =]]

JOLIE: hey jolie! i didnt know you knew my blog url. thanksthanks.. good luck for the concert on the 16th. please hang in there taking in all that kinda shit from shitty people. stay strong! =]]

GIN: hey gin.. may i know who are you?

SHU: yeah, life still goes on. haha, what potentials? ><

DEREK: i'll be fine cous! thanks. and i'm already BOTAK. haha =D

JIAWEI: yeahh.. always bumping into you. =]]

BENJI^OMG: heyy =] lol, that was damn malu-ed. but it was good fun, hilarious! haha, yeah, look after , me in army too if possible ok! =]

LOUIS: i will lilbro. =]]

WINSTON: hey god-bro! be nice to god mom ok! dont make her upset! polarbreast! hahaha.. i'll miss you and all the others sosososo much! ><

MAX: bro, i'll save the last for you. (save the best for the last) ^^ haha, and i want choc buffet, not icecream. ><>

|Thursday, September 07, 2006||andon diminished the starfire|

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

had alot of fun out today
thanks my bros and those who came today.

they say a picture say a thousand words
im sure these say much more than just words.
=]]]

and yes, my hair's GONE!

|Wednesday, September 06, 2006||andon diminished the starfire|

Sunday, September 03, 2006

the entry is solemnly posted to honour a cherished friend and brother of mine
Koh Wen Bin, who passed away on the 31st August 2006.

reminiscing upon the past;
the times that we would play about;
the times that we laughed and cried;
the times that we mugged hard for exam even though we're from different streams and different classes;
the times we encouraged each other on and had heart to heart talks;
the times we would smoke under the void decks of bedok south;
the times when nothing else mattered much when we had each other's company.
now that you're gone, i can only relive these memories one by one to feel you here deep in my heart once again, for they are deeply etched in.

i hate myself for not being there for you.
i hate you more for not wanting to talk to me or anyone about it.
i hate you for leaving us so sudden, that we all just brokedown without tears because the fact was too painful and unbearable.
i hate you for doing this to your family and people you love.
above all, i'll still miss you the most!

i wished we didn't drift apart
i wished i was the one who could be there for you.
i've failed bro, i'm sorry!
i really wished you could hear my apologies.

it's just afew more hours, before you'll be cremated
i can only send you thus far, for you have already chose to leave us.
my hearts sinking;
my eyes welling up with tears;
my fingers trembling;
as i pen these heavy thought down with much agony and pain;
to accept the cruel fact that you're gone.
oh how i wished i could be in the picture;
i would not have let this happened, never.

thank you for showing me how fragile life is;
thank you for waking me up and reminding me not to take things and friends around me for granted;
thank you for the memories, for i never once regretted knowing such a great friend sent to me from heaven.

now that you're in God's kingdom;
and eternal peace is upon you
please do miss us.
this is fucken silly cuz i know you'll never get to read this
but fuck, i still want you to know!
because i fucken miss you!!!!!!!!!!!
and i fucken hate myself for not being able to be there for you BRO!

i hope i still can feel you in my heart;
for i believe when a soul departs, the heart still lives;
inside in us.
i don't wana lose this connection bro.

for the last,
where ever you are;
know that my hearts with you.

i love you bro
rest in peace.

respectfully-yours
bingzhao.

|Sunday, September 03, 2006||andon diminished the starfire|